Sunday, October 31, 2004

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Heart In Hand Spooky Posted by Hello

I haven't written this weekend because well...

...not much has been going on here. Tomorrow I find out whether I passed or failed my test and I'm currently sick so I've stayed home doing nothing. I did play Sims and stitched so my weekend wasn't that bad.

I have uploaded 2 pictures of my current finishes, was stitching on M Designs Checkered Halloween but that border was taking too long and I needed to finish something asap so I picked up SMOs I Love Treats Banner. I hung it in my mother's room. That's where all of my banners first hang until I change them - then they go in my computer room. HIHs Spooky I finished on the 25th, just haven't had the time to scan it and upload it. I don't know what I'll stitch next but I don't think I'm going back to checkered halloween for a while. There's so many little designs I want to stitch before the end of November.

Well I'm off to find something to stitch and watch some TV - I love lazy Sundays!!!

Friday, October 29, 2004


If that wasn't the hardest most nerve racking test I have ever taken. Never in my life have I experienced anything like it. I swear NCLEX was screwing with me. Towards the end when I was on question gabizillion (239) I swore it was over - I failed - I'm going to get to 265 and on Monday I'll read the word fail on my screen. Thank God it shut off at 242-243 - atleast I still have a chance at passing. My side hurts. I don't know if it's from sitting in a chair for 2 hours or from being nervous. I wonder if my weekend of stitching and playing Sims is ruined? I hope I don't start thinking "Yep Mercy if you failed this is why - not enough studying!!!!" *sigh* Well better start preparing myself for the worse and hoping for the best! I want my mommy!!! LOL

Thursday, October 28, 2004

I actually planned on writing something about my mother today since yesterday I shared a story about my dad, but I won't - I'll save it for another day.
I went out with Kelly today and ended up getting into this huge arguement with him. I hate arguing with him. I got so upset with him that while I was telling why I was upset at him I started to cry. I hate crying, it makes me feel weak at times, and this was one time I didn't want to feel that way. I did manage to get over it quick. I'm funny that way - I can be arguing one moment and the next forget about it and carry on as if nothing happened. I see it as good and bad - it's good because I don't stress out but bad because what if the other person doesn't take what I said seriously, but whatever. The important thing is that I made him realize that he was wrong and I was right and isn't that what it always boils down to? LOL (He really was in the wrong this time though)
Besides that nothing really happened today. After going to three stores I finally managed to get my hands on The Sims 2 - can't wait until tomorrow and this weekend to play. My test is tomorrow at 11a.m. so if you are reading this just wish me luck, say a little prayer, or send good vibes my way. Sijjad did pass *yea* and that relieved me some. I don't study the night after a test but will do probably 75 questions before going to bed.
Ana's washed *yea* I hate washing her - not because she's like Kobe but because she looks so helpless like she's saying "someone get me out of here" or "are you doing this to me because you don't love me anymore?" She's still flaky which I hate - but Kelly told me she gets like this when the seasons change. I was sooooo tempted to wash her with Head and Shoulders hehe.
Well I'm off to watch some TV - I haven't stitched since Wednesday which sucks, but everytime I pick up my stitching I feel guilty like I should be studying, at least with the TV on I tend to pick up my NCLEX book and leave it open, but once this test is over it's Sims and stitching for me!

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Don't know why I've uploaded this picture - guess it goes with my Dad post. It's one of my favorite pictures of him. As a little girl I always wondered how come he never brought the cub home so we could keep it. Can you imagine? I would have been one of the coolest kids on the block LOL. Posted by Hello

Daddy's Little Girl

I helped my dad rip out the rest of the carpet in my room - I think it helped with the relaxing that I desperately needed. I got to hammer down all the nails in the wood strips. I felt like a 2 year old who was finally allowed to bang on the pots LOL. I told him I'd help him put down the new floor so that I could learn just in case I wanted to do the same one day when I moved out. He agreed which shocked me and then started telling me that with the money I'll make I won't need to do it myself - I hate when he tells me that, just because I'll have it doesn't mean I'll want to spend it. What I would like is for him to let me use his power tools to cut the pieces for the floor. Then he killed my dream by telling me "I really don't know about that - it's pretty dangerous." I hate when he treats me like I can't do certain things because I'm a girl. It makes me laugh though because in a way when I'm doing projects with my younger cousins I'm the same way, but not because it's dangerous but because they just won't do it the way I would do it and I KNOW that's exactly what my dad means by it's dangerous.

I'm up...

Wish I didn't sleep until so late. Here it is 1:53 and I'm JUST starting my day. It doesn't feel like it's going to be a very good one either. It's cold and whereas I like the cold it's making my ear feel funny, sort of like I'm about to get an ear infection. I've been waking up off and on during the morning thinking about my test. I wish I wouldn't have rescheduled it for Friday and left it for tomorrow. I think I really need to just take it and get it over with. I hate Sijjad!!! Actually I love him, he's my friend, but thanks to him I think I'm freaking out over this test. I was going to call him in a few to see how he did but I don't think I will because if he didn't pass then I will definitely start to freak out.

Well enough talk about this life altering test! It's now 2:06 and I have to pry Ana out of bed for her walk - I wish I had her life. I dote on her, she eats better than the humans in this house, she goes to the Petco toy section every other Thursday for toys and she gets to sleep and do whatever she likes, sort of like a cat. I call her my cat-dog hehe.

Write some more later - if anything life altering happens.


I figured I'd try this blogging out. I don't see myself as an interesting person but neither do the other millions of people who haveblogs and well I just get sucked in when reading so maybe that will happen to someone out there who is reading this.
Nothing new has been happening for me - well nothing that I want to happen like winning the lottery so I can pay off my school loans and bills and never have to work ever. But then I guess one would have to play to get a chance of getting paid.
I did pass my PN and will probably pass my RN on Friday which is cool because then I can get a kick ass job to pay my bills, school loans, and the occassional trip or shopping spree. If I don't pass then plan B is to go work as a LPN until I pass the RN which is something I don't even want to think about.
My life is DEAD. All this studying has taken away my social life "umph" I do love to stitch and refuse to have anyone tell me that it's boring and I'm a little old lady but I would like to have something else to do whenever I wanted to you know? Like go to a cross stitch show LOL. But with no money that's pretty hard to do. My broken record phrase has been "I hope to pass my test so I can get a job so that I can make some money" and it will continue to be that until it becomes my reality, although I'm pretty sure people are tired of hearing it- I know I am.
On the bright side a hospital I faxed my resume to did call me today so someone out there does want me and I won't have to settle to go work somewhere I don't want to go - I think the patient population would be better in this hospital anyway. Not to sound like a total priss but I do not want to work with some crackhead that walked in off the street, delivered a 2lb baby and leaves her kid in the NICU because she just had to get another fix, but as a RN I guess that I'll have to when the time comes, which is cool just don't want the situation to become the norm for me.
I'm off to study some more *ugh* I hope Friday comes and is eventful